Oh Baby Baby....

Everywhere I have seen people announcing they are pregnant. All of the people I was preggo with when I had FAR are announcing all over Facebook and Twitter that "they are expecting" "baby #2 is on the way" so with that being said.... 

I'm not pregnant. 

But I want to be, so very badly. Is it fertility issues? Nope. (Praise Jesus)I'm pretty sure everything is working fine. and the funny thing is, when I think about raising a newborn and a toddler my whole body cringes. I tense up. I want to vomit thinking about all the lack of sleep, Trying to teach FAR to behave around the baby, getting big as a house again, and just being overall miserable. 

But when I think about baby snuggles, nursing, cute baby girl stuff I get all warm and fuzzy inside. I want another baby. My arms ache when I think about holding another sweet gift of God in my arms. If you would of asked me a year ago if FAR would ever be a big brother you would of gotten a really fast "NO!" but now... I don't know if it's because i'm getting older, or what but I have extreme baby fever. 

Two main things have to change before we can even dream about having another baby. I have to finish school & We have to have a house of our own. We cannot raise another baby where we live, it is just not feasible for many reasons, the main one being space. So until these two things come I will continue poppin my pill, and prayin for God's will :) 

Speaking of babies... How's FAR you ask? 

Big. 

Sassy.

Loving. 

Hilarious. 

Amazing. 

PS- Linking up with Finding Family, I can't get the button to work! 

Blogger Problems

I know I know it's Thursday. and these are the first words you've heard from me all week. Have you missed me?!! I just wanted to pop in and say that were still here and going... kinda. My classes are really kicking my tail booty this semester. But there are a few things I want you to know... 

Have you had the chance to click on the Team Tori button on my sidebar? Well let me tell you, Tori is the sweetest little girl who is currently undergoing Chemo. She is 6 years old and has neurofibromatosis. (it causes tumors to grow on the nerves of her little body) Her momma Michelle is a strong amazing woman, and she's giving away a Cat in the Hat Crayon Tote. So go check it out and enter here! 

To Girls and a Pin went live yesterday!! This is a fun link up where you link up any of your DIY posts and you will be entered to win a prize. You can enter all month long so go do that here! 

Ok that's all i've got for you... oh wait I just lied. How about some cuteness? You're Welcome. 

I promise FAR does more than sleep... he's just had a horrible cold this past week and were just getting over it. 

and what have I been doing this week? Funny you should ask...  

Blah. 

First Day

So yesterday was my FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! I'm not going to lie to you, I was going to get my hubby to take my first day of school picture for the blog and I was going to tell you what an amazing day I had as a born again college student. Because you know; like we discussed yesterday, I was  getting a great night of sleep, gonna wake up, get all my online work done, take a test to exempt my Research class so I got the credit but didn't have to take it. RB was going to be home from work before 5 like he discussed with his boss, I was leaving FAR with him, gonna get in my shinny Kia (who's name is Mia) and drive to school with a smile on my face. 

I wish. Let's talk about what really happened shall we? 

I did get a great night of sleep, but Fletch woke up so sick with a horrid cold. So I jump on the computer while RB gets ready for work and feeds Fletch breakfast and I decide, hey I have time to do my super important test before RB leaves. They give me a hour but yeah.. i'm way smarter than that and I can fly through it... 

That test kicked my butt. I failed. So who will be taking Research this semester? Yours truly. and that is a lesson learned to me that I do not know everything, I can't do it all, and I am not superwoman.  Thanks Jesus. Good lesson... 

I was so angry at myself and I took it allll out on RB. (Who's a horrible wife? *raises hand*) After giving him the 3rd degree as he walked out the door to go to work, I sent him a text telling him something along the lines of thanks for not supporting me (not true) and we got into a huge fight. He called me from work and basically told me he was right and I was wrong. He does support me. He tried to help me twice before he left. and that if I didn't appreciate him, I could do it all by myself he wasn't helping anymore. 

And you know what bloggy friends? That was exactly what I needed to hear. I'm gonna say this once so listen carefully because I don't say this a lot... 

He was right. I deserved it.  

After that moment I turned off the computer. I spent the rest of the afternoon with my baby guy. Trying to teach him to color red. Playing blocks. Tickling his pigs. Then and there I decided a few things... 

If FAR needs me, he will get me. If he is not asleep, or playing with his dad, my computer will be off. I will be spending time with my son.

It's all about balance. I've got to find the right time to get my school work done, get things done around the house, spend time with my family, and sleep.

Anyway, back to my day. So then RB text's me his schedule and I realize he gets off at 6 not before 5. So thank God for my sister I can take FAR to her on my way to school. 

So no first day of school pictues for you, in fact, after yesterday, no pictures at all. I feel like i've been hit by a bus. I am so mentally exausted I could scream. This is why your getting a rambling babbling long blog post... 

But it's from my heart. and that counts for something right? 

PS- Mia the Kia wasn't shiny at all... she was totally dirty.